September 11th…

This was a blog post from a couple of years ago. Words taken directly from my journal in September 2001. I still remember every emotion. How do you remember that day? September 11th….

Sneaky Loneliness

Emotions all over the place. But this is not new. It just seems like the stuff I have to work through has no end. It’s like there are so many layers to work through in order to get back to my authentic self. Sometimes it feels like I will never get there. It’s funny that … More Sneaky Loneliness

Thinking of the self

I have heard the terms self-love, self-hate, self-esteem all my life. I have had issues with self-esteem all my life because of being picked on usually because of my weight. Although my mom doesn’t seem to think that the term “self-esteem” exists because she used to have the healthiest self esteem that I ever saw. … More Thinking of the self

Doing My Best

So I just thought about how absolutely crazy it was for me to leave my job in 2009 without having any unemployment. I have no idea how I made it for as long as I have. It was a combination of mom, me working myself to death, selling stuff, and of course God. But I … More Doing My Best

September 11th…

Going through my old journals, I ran across an entry I wrote on September 20, 2001 about September 11th (disclaimer:  there may be inaccuracies, but I was telling the story from my memory at the time): “Okay so it has been awhile since I’ve written, not a long time, but so much has happened in … More September 11th…