In honor of the 21st anniversary of my sister’s (still unsolved) murder, I’m re-posting an essay that I wrote and was published by Foliate Oak Literary Magazine a few years ago that explored the aftermath of that traumatic event in my life. My mom’s recent passing makes me think of them now together in love, … More She Had Known Me Forever
via Let the beauty of what you love be what you do. – Rumi at BrainyQuote.
via 6 Things I’ve learned from being my mother’s caregiver.
I have a tendency, on my birthday to reflect on “what hasn’t happened yet.” To reflect on the unaccomplished, and be sad about all that has yet to be done. Yes, today I am turning 39 years old, and I wonder, where in the world the time went. I know, I know, I am supposed … More All that I am – thirty-nine
I have found that while these feelings are uncomfortable, accepting those unfavorable feelings gives me clarity. But I always try to skip steps. … More Skip the Pain
There was one moment. One moment that I began to feel sorry for myself. Spouses taking pictures, kids, families. And me alone. Well physically alone. I retreated back to that old feeling, those old beliefs. Who do I have to be to not walk this journey alone? Who do I have to be to be … More Never Alone
I allowed myself to feel sad. It was the only gift of love I could give myself. And I cried, maybe 3 or 4 times when I felt like I needed to cry. Sometimes they were just tears, other times sobs. But it was all okay. I allowed myself the freedom and time to feel. … More Cry
Beautiful – excellent of its kind. wonderful; very pleasing or satisfying. I never knew that I didn’t know who I was. Or maybe I always knew, but there was so much emotional junk that needed to be removed for me to finally embrace who I am. As I have been on this path of emotional … More I Was Beautiful in 2013
“Remember, the two-legged and the four-legged are made by the same creator. We are relatives.” -Cloud Dancing (from Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman) “No creature is undeserving of love. God reminds us of that.” –Today’s Gift from Hazelden It had been a long week. For various reasons, I was feeling especially lonely and disconnected. That’s kind … More Cat and Mouse
“Expressing gratitude is a powerful practice. It transforms painful events. That doesn’t mean saying ‘thank you’ only for receiving something good, although that’s part of it…we can turn almost any experience around by practicing gratitude for what we experience or feel each moment, especially the moments we don’t like. If we’re grateful for what we … More Thankful For the Bad Stuff? Really?